Sophomore...

I always feel like I rush these posts. I go back and read them, and they're all written in a hurry; words slurring together, sentences abrupt and short. I really should take my time when writing out my inner thoughts and feelings. I feel like I have a lot to say, but when I write them on my blog, the feelings and emotions that I once felt, aren't correctly written or explained. Honestly, I don't even think this blog has helped me with my feelings and venting. Why am I rushing?

Today was my first day as a Sophomore in college. Walking into my classes, a different feeling walked with me. A sense of accomplishment, a sense of purpose, a sense of driven passion. I feel older. I feel much more mature in my educational journey, and I really should take this oppurtunity to give my future all I can give it. When walking into my classes this semester, I want to leave everything at the door. Distractions, worries, pressure, stress... everything. All I need to bring is my attention and determination to do well this semester. I am older. I am a sophomore at one of the top universities in the country, and I should take pride in the fact that I am a living part of this campus. I am one of the successful students who is trying to make something more of herself. This semester, my main goal is to leave everything at the door. Concentration, organization, belief in myself: these are all things I will use to help me with my success.

This semester is going to be amazing - I can tell. I can feel the focus already, and I know that when trusting in myself and God, I can succeed. My goal this semester? Not to get straight A's, not to get a 4.0 GPA, but just to do the very best that I know I have inside of me. I can do it, and I will do it. This is going to be a great year.

A Great day!

I am in love with independence!! I am having so much fun living on my own, with one of my best friends! It has been such a blast! Even though I was unsure about it at first, I am certain that I made one of the best decisions I could have made. =) Nikki is an amazing roommate, and I love her dearly! Tess and Chance FINALLY played together tonight! Tess ran around the living room, while Chance chased after her! It was adorable. I thought they would just co-exist with one another, and mainly just ignore one another.. but it is certain that they will be best friends from this night onward!

The more I think about school, the more anxious I am for it to start. I can't wait to have a concrete schedule, and be busy with both work and school. I am yearning for that balance. I guess I should just try and relax this next week and a half, before the semester begins. =)

Also, I am setting a goal for myself! I want to weigh 132 by my 20th birthday, which is exactly in 5 months from this Saturday. I know it's gonna be a lot of hard work, but I really, really want to try and work for it! I know what I have to do, and I know what my goal is and how I am going to get there... Now, I am just going to set my mind to it and DO IT! I am tired of being lax about this weight thing, when it should be a huge issue in my life. I want to be healthy! The sooner I lose the weight, the happier I will be and the more practice I will have living my healthy lifestyle! I am so ready to conquer my weight this time! I pray that the Lord will be with me. =)

That's about it for now! Today was a great day, and I can't wait for more to come!

Independent Life.

I'm officially moved into my own apartment, alongside Tess, my best friend Nikki and her dog, Chance. It's a small place with 2 bedrooms and 2 baths, but it's our own little sanctuary from the outside world. It's nice to have my independence, and have some responsibility. I was more than ready for this transition. Everything is right on track, as far as how I want my life to be. I have finally moved out of my parent's house, and am on my way to being a fully independent woman.

School starts in a week and a half, and I am finally starting to get anxious for it. Before, I wasn't certain that moving out and starting school within 2 weeks was a good idea, but already I am adjusted to the apartment life. I am taking 17 credit hours, with 2 days off during the week. This means: chaos on Tuesdays & Thursdays. I only have one lab in the morning on Monday, obviously not that bad. However, on Tuesdays and Thursdays I have 4 classes, and an online class. It should be interesting..

I am feeling a little overwhelmed still, but I know that within a couple more weeks, I will be completely comfortable with everything in my life. I honestly feel like my thoughts are all jumbled into a huge mess right now, but it makes perfect sense to me. Sorry if this blog is all over the place.. hopefully next time I will be a bit more composed.