I must be crazy.

Hello Blog..

Everything has been insane lately. School, work.. the story of my life, right? Well, I have a lot to think about right now. I am extremely confused about my major. I really thought that Psychology was the way to go for me, mainly because there was nothing I really was good at or enjoyed that much. But, now that I am actually in my major, I am starting to think it's not for me. I know it's a little delayed to be thinking of changing majors, but I really think that I need to follow my heart.

Ever since I was a little girl, I had an infatuation with animals: big, small, mammal, reptile, wild animals, dogs, cats.. you name it, and I loved it. I used to dream of becoming an amazing Vet and helping all kinds of animals, saving their lives, even. But slowly, that dream started to disappear as I got older, and instead of wanting to save animals, I just wanted to own them. Now, though.. something has changed. I've realized that I never really lost that motivation to be a Vet, I just thought I couldn't do it. I put it in the back of my mind, pushing it away because I wasn't the best at science and math. But, now it's got me thinking, again. Why did I give up that dream, just because I am not the best at a certain subject? I have the heart and the spirit to be a Vet, simply because animals are my life. I have a certain compassion and understanding with them.. They've always been there for me when times were rough, or when I just needed someone to love me unconditionally. And so with that motivation, I think I am going to change my major to Biological Sciences, studying in Animal Physiology and Behavior.

This has been my dream for more than 15 years now.. Why should I give up so easily just because I have to focus more on the subjects I'm not great at? Psychology was just a back-up for me.. It was a major I wanted, because I truly thought there was nothing else I was good at. Something awoke inside me now, and I really think I am ready to take on this task. I've lost focus on school these past couple weeks, because my heart was truly not into school. I am doing the mundane classes, nothing really enticing me. But here, looking at these classes for my new major, they're amazing! They look amazing! I'm going to have to work my butt off to accomplish what I want.. But you know what? This is my life.. I only have one. Why shouldn't I do what I want with it? Why should I just settle for second best? I make my life, and I WILL make it absolutely amazing. I would LOVE to work at a Veterinary Office some day, or even be a Zoologist. I am so ready to put all my focus into school now, and make something out of my life for ME.

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